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[Nov. 19th, 2006|03:41 pm] |
2ish days! wooo woooooo!
i'm excited. too bad it can't be NOW! |
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| If Mary dropped a baby girl tonight, I would name her Rock n' Roll. |
[Oct. 17th, 2006|12:35 pm] |
That's a good song. Look into it. Also, The Roots redid it leaving the man himself in it too. Does that make sense? I don't care.
Anyshit, I am writing in here because I feel bad. Well, not really. I actually just feel like a nerd for having one and then never writing anything in here. So yea.
Hey.
It's Sarah's birthday today! Happy day, Smelly!
Chew on this:
Yea, we're cute. I would have a picture of us from this past weekend, but, oh yea..that's rite..some jackass stole my camera out of my apartment. Classy. I guess Rohnert Park has just as high of a crime rate as my house in Mira Mesa. Lame.
Okay, until we meet again, LJ. |
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| maybe i should write in this. |
[Aug. 22nd, 2006|01:57 pm] |
ok.
so i'm in rohnert park.
today was my first day of class. it wasn't so bad. i have no idea who is in my class, because like always, i sit in front and never turn around haha. nice.
i wasted an hour and a half of my life trying to figure out my money situation with depositing and withdrawing money.
turns out nfcu is a giant lying whore and should go back to it's home on whore island.
yea.
my suitemates/roomate are great. i think it'll be a good year.
they're all very different but we have a good chemistry. even our csa (which is basically an ra) commented on that.
our csa, lauren, is super chill & really nice. i've ran into her 3 times today and we chatted.
i'm gonna go ahead and say i love living on campus. i have really long breaks between classes and practices but it's fabulash because i can just go home and make breakfast (which is what i did today.)
i really like it. and since the campus is so small it's not far to walk anywhere really.
so next month will be fun with sarah coming up, erika coming up, and my mystery flight to meet with stellie.
woo.
k byeee<3 |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 19th, 2006|01:17 am] |
liiiiiiiiiiife.
<3
love you. |
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| sam burchard update. |
[Jun. 29th, 2006|02:27 am] |
i've been so proud of myself for being so happy with who i am & where i am in life,
however..
i've been having some serious self-esteem issues the past few weeks.
last nite did NOT help.
last nite WAS TERRIBLE.
i'm pretty good at acting like nothing happened.
katie said that's bad.
i believe her.
i felt like shit today.
but work really helped.
it was a good day there.
and after work katie took me on a fancy dinner date on the beach and we talked about lots of stuff.
so that was nice.
but still..last nite.
uuuggghh.
i'm mad that my feelings got hurt.
i'm mad that i put myself in that position.
i'm mad that i'm that stupid girl.
but i can't be mad at anyone but myself.
rrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaar.
fuck. |
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| males in my life. |
[Jun. 24th, 2006|11:42 pm] |
so my dad just called me buggie rite before he went to bed.
it made me smile.
like i know i don't have a good relationship with him but i'm hoping i will one day.
it just made me really happy to hear that.
haha it's silly but i've always been called bug, mainly by my dad and liz and ashley, but i don't see liz and ashley anymore so i miss hearing it.
um parker's a cock block.
and apparently my company is no longer good enough for him.
cool.
haven't talked to paul in at least 3 weeks.
cool.
i still like marc and there's nothing i can do about it.
too bad he's not drunk all the time so he would be sweet and do sweet things.
and i could have sex with him hahahaha.
i'm kidding about that cuz that would suck if he were drunk all the time but the sweet part would be nice.
whatever.
i'm just in a mood now.
i'm kinda watching bridget jones' diary and she was just laughing in bed with the cute british guy and i miss doing that.
just being happy and laughing and having fun with a guy.
whatever.
like i said..just in a mood.
and now i'm reminded of doing that laughing in bed with jamie.
ffffff.
haha i'm over him but i hung out with him the other day and it just reminded me of good times.
yea..in a mood.
edit: i just remembered the drunk conversation sarah & i shared about not being able to have relationships with guys because of our fucked up relationships with our dads.
ha.
i was laughing when we were talking about it,
but i'm not laughing now. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 22nd, 2006|04:16 am] |
i'm glad when i click on my friends page to read people's entries,
it doesn't show me the most recent ones.
it likes to selectively leave some out.
that's fucking stupid.
fuck you lj.
in other news,
i still don't have a summer fling and the one i wish i had will never happen.
cool huh. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 2nd, 2006|01:51 am] |
i'm glad being drunk is an excuse to be an ass.
yea..i'm not one to talk.
i will defend myself with being provoked by shit heads, although it still wasn't an excuse.
[these last two sentences are directed at me being an ass to sarah at my stolen ipod party..sorry again love<3]
but yea whatever marc with a c is a real prick.
like i'm not torn up about anything like that he doesn't like me or whatever but for some reason i'm really bothered by the way he's been acting lately.
and i'm usually not at all offended when people cuss at me,
but he kept using the word fuck and i got incredibly upset.
i actually closed the window thinking that it would make him go away.
if i hadn't, i would have copied the conversation onto here haha.
yes, telling someone how you feel about them apparently ruins friendships.
sarah & i re-enacted that this evening in the jacuzzi haha.
then i baptized her.
(:
like i really truly am happy about where i am in life and being alone [in a romantic sense] and who i am and all,
but these last few days i've been thinking A LOT about past boys i've 'dated'
and i emphasize the 'boy' aspect.
ahh i duno what it is but it's been on my mind.
not like making me all sad, just a little angry and confused.
whatevs.
nite nite. |
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[May. 8th, 2006|12:14 pm] |
i feel so hiiiiigh rite now it's amazing hahaha.
i got 45 mintues of sleep last nite because i have a mind that i can never turn off and i guess it just caught up to me.
so now i'm high on the lack of sleep.
yea yea yeaaaa woop dee woop. |
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| hello sarah, jenn, morgan, crystal & lurkers [: |
[Apr. 21st, 2006|01:13 pm] |
i wanted to say hello.
i'm sitting here at school waiting for paul to get outta class so i can go home.
i did homework already so i thought to myself..
no one's waiting for the computers and i am bored so imma internet it up weeeee!
anyhoo i may/may not be staying a couple weeks longer than i intended.
my mommy has to get a colonoscopy & she can't drive herself to it & if she can't find a way there and back i mite stay.
or i mite just fly down for a week.
we'll see.
so i was thinking about how many people i wanna see before i peace outtie and then i thought about how many days are left & all the school stuff i have to do & the cleaning of the house and all
and realized that's not really possible haha.
i could have a giant party at the beach or something & require people to bring me things like food haha.
whatever.
or i could just not.
& secretly see just a few people.
i really miss my sister.
she texted me the other day to make sure i wasn't living in the streets.
i guess she talked to liz & liz told her i got kicked out.
that was nice of her i suppose.
i want to call her but i don't know what the fuck i'd say.
'hey thanks for beating me up when i was trying to help?'
yea i duno.
i really miss her tho.
um i have to poo.
and these three bitches are staring at me through the window i'm sitting in front of and it makes me want to shit on them.
yea i should stop this nonsense now.
k call me ya'll.
if you don't know my number ask sarah or something haha<3 |
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[Apr. 9th, 2006|10:39 pm] |
so i went to the atm last nite
& was about to get out of my car
when paul, parker, jason, eric & dusty all yelled at me to leave because there was a guy in front of the atm showing us his gun.
then i called 9-1-1.
as for now,
i'm dancing to shaki. |
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| isn't nikki amazing [: |
[Apr. 4th, 2006|09:24 pm] |
a song i tried to write for sam because she said there needed to be one about hazel eyes.
what a beautiful haunting
tantalizing and taunting
mischievious flickering flames
so beautiful so flaunting
teasting jesting and jaunting
intoxicating mind games
i'm so lost in the haze
of her hazel eyes
fallen beneath the gaze
of her hazel eyes
all of the warning would have never sufficed
i was a gonner when i looked into her
hazel eyes
what a beautiful question
an innocent suggestion
silent,violent volatile
what a beautiful lesson
painful prominent presence
lips forming a secretive smile
i'm so lost in the maze
of her hazel eyes
insides set ablaze
by her hazel eyes
all of the warning would have never sufficed
i was a gonner when i looked into her
hazel eyes.
-----except it would have been better if it were a guy writing it.....but this is what every guy thinks i am sure. cuz sam is sexy. and i'm straight. but sam is the best. |
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| an experpt of an email to the g-folk & what i was thinking earlier: |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|11:48 pm] |
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..today is wendesday..my long day..9 am to 9 pm. but today is even more differnt because on my breaks, i have been doing things! on my first break, i went to a review session for an upcoming test. and my second break which normally is from 315-6, i went to a guest speaker's lecture. i just got out. she is a sociology professor from uc riverside. she also has worked with laborers & unions to make a change, especially focusing on racial and class differences & oipportunites. it was a good lecture she got us all involved and was an open discussion lecture so that was nice. i also talked to her afterwards. anyway, every since i started taking this social problem class, my eyes have been opened to a lot of things. typically i have been known as a conservative republican & run of the mill patriot. well, i'm sure i got those values from my dad & mom and i don't think they were wrong to shape my values that way. and i'm still patriotic in the fact that i do love the us but that doesn't mean i don't see what is wrong with it. and because i love it, i want to change it. but my eyes have been opened to so much that i don't consider myself that same girl people used to think of me as. i know i was sheltered to many important issues because of how i was raised, where i was raised, and was limited things i was taught. once again, i'm not placing blame on anyone. but i'm learning more & in this learning process, i want to learn more to make a difference. lately, i've been struggling with what i want to ultimately do with my life. i've always had ideas of my future self, what i want to work towards, and my ideas seem to change like the season! i talked to my sister about this one nite because i was really getting confused, but she pointed out that in all the professions i have dreamed of and aspired to have as goals, i've always wanted to be a "helper"; make a difference in something. i still want to do that. and i'm realizing it more and more everyday that THAT IS my goal. that IS what i want to do. but i'm still not sure of exactly how. there are so many things i want to learn about so i can change, but i can't be superwoman. i also feel that if i choose a certain career, i will lose myself and my goals in the restrictions of the profession on conform to the norms of society or get caught up in the monetary aspect that i will put my goals "in the backseat" and eventually, forget them altogether. that really scares me. but rite now, i'm really focusing to get myself educated and be knowledgeable so i can better understand what i want. i know this is really long and an unprovoked topic haha sorry but i really wanted to share it with you both. correct me if i am wrong, but you two and my dad have opposing political views? sometimes i feel that what i am learning and understanding, my dad just shoots down what i'm trying to voice. i may be wrong but that is how i feel sometimes so i keep quiet & choose what i say around him. i'm not identifying with either political party, democrats, republicans, conservatives, liberals..i'm identifying with myself & what i want to be and what i want to grow into. wow. that was a lot i wrote. haha sorry again. i really hope none of this offends either of you because that is the last thing i want to do. i know i also seem very fickle in what i want. haha my dad would tell you that. let's see, for example..i really wanted to be a teacher. then i really wanted to be a coach. then i really wanted to be a clinical social worker. then i really wanted to be a psychologist. then i really wanted to be in the fbi. honestly..i'm just not sure. but i am trying to explore my options, and in turn, find myself.. |
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| hello, livejournal.com. |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|02:32 am] |
i have not written in this bad boy in quite some time.
i am currently chillin on my couch listening to television with my kitty curled up next to me.
i study study studied for my test tomorrow cuz it's stuff i get confused on easily.
so i'm really excited to move to sonoma.
everything is gonna be so different.
& i'm no longer so worried about being a loner on my birthday because my sister already has a surprise planned out for me [:
weeeee.
umm what have i been doing?
school.
water polo.
relaxing & having no worries.
woo.
ok that's all for now.
oodleay. |
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| i just found this hilarious..hahahaha |
[Feb. 27th, 2006|04:47 pm] |
DrumsandH20polo: bye sam i think youd be my best friend if we went to school together - not if you werre younger but if there was a multi aged school or you were stupid or i was really smart you know?
do the sambot: hahahahaha
do the sambot: i gotcha
DrumsandH20polo: like smartguy
do the sambot: hurry up and go to college
do the sambot: shit
DrumsandH20polo: that would be cool
do the sambot: haha
do the sambot: totally
DrumsandH20polo: but all the guys are manlie rthan him when they get naked
do the sambot: hahahaha
DrumsandH20polo: oh but i got hair on my chin
DrumsandH20polo: youve gotta check it out
do the sambot: yeayuh!
do the sambot: check you out
DrumsandH20polo: and we were diving today and everyime i got out of the water i had piubes shower
DrumsandH20polo: pretty hot eh?!
do the sambot: hahahahahaha
do the sambot: oh jesus
DrumsandH20polo: pubes showing
do the sambot i got it
DrumsandH20polo: yeah
DrumsandH20polo: hahaha later samme g
do the sambot: bye bye sir nick
DrumsandH20polo:(: |
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| i am an artist in ways you could only desire to fathom. |
[Feb. 10th, 2006|01:19 pm] |
yea i just quoted myself from a conversation i had in the car with,
well,
myself.
mmhm yea.
anyhoo i learned a lesson today.
although i am a certified genius in the often overlooked trade of bullshitting,
i've come to see that i can do so much more.
i studied hard last nite & dilligently read and understood my history books,
and i proved it this morning in a test & discussion.
it felt really good.
i did, however, completely bull shit a test
[very well, mite i add]
later on in another history class.
the contrast between what i felt after each situation was crazy.
as much as i hate to admit it,
i'm enjoying school.
but only when i actually try and put myself into learning.
so yea..
that's my current self-phenomenon.
good shit, yo. |
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| big news. |
[Jan. 29th, 2006|05:14 pm] |
they are building mausoleums in the el camino cemetery!
i looked at them & they are really pretty.
this is big news because i want to be buried in one,
but there aren't many places left in san diego where they can fit them.
so when i found out i was excited.
my mom got some info on them.
anyhoo..
my momma and i went to visit my grandma.
i saw her on her birthday and left flowers & stuff
& i noticed there was a huge spot of missing grass over her grave.
when i told the caretakers,
we went back to look at it & noticed it was in the shape of a heart.
weird.
we also found out some interesting things about my grandpa that me and my mom had no idea about.
he had planned his funeral and buriel all out & everything.
it's all paid for too.
so i duno if they're gonna try & move his body here from the pi,
or just give my mom the money.
we'll see.
k that's all. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 26th, 2006|09:51 pm] |
ummm..
i guess i'm not really into mark in the way i used to be.
but i'm gonna break his record & wear this outfit 8 days in a row.
i made $111 for working 2 hours today.
i'll make another $100 or so working 3 hours saturday.
yea..that rules.
oh yea,
i'm gonna marry paul. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 22nd, 2006|09:37 pm] |
so i went to mexico today.
that was random.
mark called this morning and asked if i wanted to go to kung food & i did.
he said to be ready in 15-20 minutes so i figured he'd pick me up in an hour & 20 minutes haha & that's what happened.
we met parker there & enjoyed some tasty breakfast.
then we were going to go to balboa park but as we were driving through,
mark decided we should just go to mexico.
so we did.
the tijuana wax museum is incredibly frightening but i survived.
aaaand we all got matching bracelets hahahaha.
it's symbolic of our friendship & our tj visit hahahaha oh god it's great.
then we went back to kung food & got dinner.
yum.
then to the spruce street suspension bride.
it was kinda scary cuz they were shaking it and making it rock and bounce n shiet.
but enjoyable.
i should post some pictures but that means i have to sign off, unplug my computer,
bring it to the office, plug all the other shit in & load it all & i'm not in the mood for that rite now.
so maybe another time.
ok bye. |
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